I’m always out of the loop, HOW LONG have I been saying I want a video version of Instagram?! Scheiße #letthevinebegin
This rant doesn’t come from my work, it is solely from my own brain. Whenever I get those negative body thoughts such as:
- “I don’t know any white girls with thighs as big as mine are”
- “I will forever have a pooch belly”
- “My arms are bigger than most guys I know”
- “I have no ass, just an extension of my giant thighs”
- “Why don’t I have a rockin’ body like this:
These negative thoughts aren’t very powerful or intense, I must add. I can think these things and continue to eat my Oreo cookie. I don’t feel bad when I eat sugary, fatty foods. I eat them because I have a big ass sweet tooth. I don’t gorge on them as well, either. I can have two or three and not think twice about it.
I feel completely strange for what I’m about to say. I am comfortable with my body. Yes, I have big thighs, lack of ass, big arms, whatever. But I’m not so uncomfortable with them that I won’t go to measures to change them. No offense to any friends of mine, but when all I see is pictures of friend’s rock hard bodies, workout posts, etc. all I can think is that that is how they want to be recognized. Like, “Oh Sally? Yea, shes got a perfect ass.” or “Mike? Six pack Mike?”
I think I’ve come to a point in my life, a whoppin’ 24 years of it, to where I realize that my body is NOT what I want to be recognized for or congratulated for. That rock hard body ain’t gonna last forever. Don’t get me wrong, I’m ALL for health including eating clean and exercise. What I’m personally not for is aiming for something and putting all your time and energy into what? Abs? An indent in your arm where your triceps show? Personally, I believe that I’m LUCKY to feel comfortable with an “imperfect” body because I can guarantee A LOT of people can’t sit with themselves with a pocket of fat around their belly.
I would rather be recognized for something with more substance and less selfish. I am NOT saying working out and eating right is selfish, but focusing all your time and energy to look like a VS model or Channing Tatum… not for me. I know I don’t need a perfectly toned body to be loved or paid attention to. In a way, not having a model body is like insurance to keep away all the false love and attention for my “good looks”.
Selfies in da mornin’ #bigasswhitecomforter #mornin #ew
You’re damn right I am. #cookiedough #oreos #brownie (at BritBratBakery)
Left: First picture together. Right: 6 months later 😜💕 #happy6months #bf
😂 #ho #no #mo
After an hour at the bar waiting to be seated, “Man, I’m gonna be plastered by the time we sit” -Mom #momhasasianglow #drunkenmothersday (at Benihana)
We couldn’t be anymore different in personality, but I wouldn’t be the strong, independent person I am if it wasn’t for her! Love you, Mom! 💜 #mamasday #singleparent #susieQ
He wouldn’t him without a beer and a phone in his hand! #bf (at Radiator Springs Racers)
Tucker saw the Vet today so I HAD to cheer him up with a Puppy Cuppie, made with chicken, mashed potatoes, with bacon and a cube of cheese. I unfortunately can’t take credit for this one! #cuppies #sickpuppy #amazeballs (at Cuppies)
Happy Cinco de Mayo! Margarita cupcakes with tequila frosting 😋 #love #baking #mustbe21 #cupcakewasted
If you ever thought about what boys night looked like… (at Naja’s Place)
I think Si and I would get along! 😂 #lovecupcakes